我想我们不适合

昨天在梦里   隐隐约约  觉得  脸上有些什么
醒来时   眼睛肿到不行

走到镜子前看    明显的泪痕    花了脸庞



-Qian-

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现在没办法停下来  
不然心中的无力感    会慢慢扩散


从   划了一刀    到    开始破洞


我不要

War Ep6

It's the first day of exam. As my expect, I nearly cant wake up on the morning. I set my alarm at 630am, but finally wake up at 8am. =,= exam starts at 930am.

I was so lucky cz yesterday night last minute saw some unfamiliar topic, and today comes out in exam!!

I was quite happy because I helped two uncles on the way I go lunch with Moon.

I was quite happy because my Ting Ting is coming back tomorrow!!

I was quite happy because Moon treat me Secret Recipe Meatball Spaghetti.

I was quite happy because the room is clear and I can concentrate on my study right now!!



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I dreamed MrKm yesterday night. He cried so badly in my dream, I can even see his tear. In the true world, he never shows his weakness. (All guys don't show perhaps? ) Decided to sms him and ask whether he ok not... LOL but end up, I didn't send out the msg.

I was so potential in dreaming nonsense. But sometimes you found funny when every night have different kind of weird weird stories. Not including nightmare.
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Good luck to my dear Seyee! Fighting for EXAMMMMM!!!!!!!!!! 

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I need a part time so badly..... =(

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Change layout to sea green!  Can't you feel the relax?  (was joking lolx.) 

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-Wait for next paper, Wednesday, Qian-

Disappointment

( Dear readers, this post is only for my mum. You can scroll down to next post or just escape.
No worries, mum is English-educated. She found my blog, cool right? )

Dear mum, 

Its kind of disappointed that you can't come to my college. 

I am sorry for recent bad temper due to stress of final exam, 

I apologized for my bad attitude. 

Recent phone talk make me frustrated because you unable manage to make a last visit on me. 

I am sad, sincerely. 

I don't like that Uncle Tai since few years ago. 

Because of moral respect issue, I still greet him every time he comes to us. 

You might not know all of your children dislike him, including me. 

I don't like he always disturb our family gather dinner which may held once a week. 

And guess what, you still manage to ask him come to my college and bring me back home with dad?!

OH NO!! I DON'T WANT!! I rather take bus or even take 8-hours train to go home. 

It's doesn't matter to me for travelling here and there alone since 18years old. 

I understand that you have to work, and take care of brothers and sister at the same time. 

I try not to be that childish and understanding everything, like your usual good daughter. 

But I just can't stand for the disappointment. 

That's why my tone in the phone was like ignorance and nothing-to-talk-more. I scare I cry again. 

Anyway, if that is your final decision. I will accept it. But with deep heart, I hope you could come. 

No worries, I still love you always. 

-Your daughter, Queen- 

War Ep1

Student's war usually refers to Examination.
Well, Im going to sit on my final on 25th July.
Actually there's lack of time to me to cover all the syllabus.
But anyway, I have to blog something or say something before I goes into Psycho. lol.
Actually there is not much chapters I have to study, but the subject is covered too much subtopic. That's why.


2nd of August will be my last paper, and after all I will check out my stupid lovely-warm hostel. Then back to my lovely hometown! OMGG, I just can't wait for it! Moreover my dearest Ting is coming back from Korea!!! Wait for dunno how many years ady... 2years?? lolx. not important anymore. She's coming backkkkkk..!


Oh ya, I cut my hair short a bit. Much regret on it. All rebonding parts have been cut off. And my current hair just make me looks messy and sleepy. Ishh. Planning to have new hairstyle, but Unfortunately, practical session at hospital going to start soon, so no any fashion hairstyle is allowed to do. >< *sad*

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The snack that I like since im a little girl. I remembered my grandpa always brought back a super big packet of it, all of his grandchildren super excited when see it. It normally finished in 2hours.

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had great time with star .   and i miss you . 

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WAR!! FIGHTINGGG!!!! 

- Fighting, Qian - 

July 2011 part one

从小到大的朋友，伤害我一次又一次后，原谅一次又一次后，
终于感到厌恶。不想见你，连看到你的照片，从以前的可爱，都变成现在的恶心。

很抱歉，不是你的错，是我从前从前就开始傻，
把你我的友情放太重，殊不知，你从来就没有在乎过，一次又一次的加重伤害，
直到无法忍受，选择逃离，就算到世界的另一边，也想离开你，然安宁的生活再次开始。


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要大考了，会减少online.
最后一次了，会大大力 的加油！
祝福我吧~



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如果你有注意，每年的这天，我都会找你。今晚的聊天很愉快。希望永远都这样。如果时间倒回去，五年前的今天，我不会放开你的手。我很抱歉。一句话让双方都受伤。

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 Good bye my long hair. WTF.

;)

only YOU, able to stop my heartbeat. 

-love, qian-

share: 被我喜欢

“你这么优秀，会被越来越多的人喜欢，那我怎么办？ ”


“被我喜欢。”




*LIKE*

.

你答应和我去的地方  
却一次又一次和不同的人去
我等到头发长到地上料
还是没呕 轮到我






他娘的



你好嘢



你答应的东西    




他娘的




就是  BULLSHIT.




-fuck you-

ignore ba.

有些人有些事  也许很刻骨铭心   也是你明天就忘了
拿得起  是一回事  
放不放得下   又是另外一回事


很用力很用力   放下   承担   一箱又一箱的回忆
原来很费力    原来很伤神


孟婆汤   有时候也许是好的



当你发现    眼角留着泪    心里觉得累   时
才惊觉    原来眼前这个人    很爱很爱      很爱很爱







才惊觉
哭不出来的感觉    很心碎




-end-

剪，不是卷

女孩： *眺望远方*    好想去剪头发啊。。。

男孩： *漫不经心*    Maggie mee那种啊？


女孩： =,=  ......

i miss you

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当下的心情

当下的心情




知道你最近都不在  心却感觉你去了好远好远的地方  
或许过上一阵子你都不会回来   心平静安静冷静


明天你回来了  我却走了
我不在的时候   你是不是也这样的心情


潘多拉的盒子释放出对你的思念
却找不到锁上的魔咒


过了很久很久才知道
其实这已经变成一种习惯   习惯着所有有你和没有的风景


亲爱的我没有责怪   只是不明白
你是如何相信未来


凝望天上的云   忆起你常跟我说的话  
想着你是否也看着一样的天空   不管是从前或现在


结局该怎么写   写下稿子的我   站在原地   等你的答案

i am sorry

大家都出现的地方  为什么我的出现   
就造成这样的质疑和轰动   是我不够好吗？ 还是我没资格？



-end-

share: 系上鞋带

to zonex!

因为你是我最好的朋友， 

我可以毫不掩饰自己的狼狈与悲伤， 

因为你会装作看不见你相信我能坚强勇敢， 

其实我的狼狈与难堪你都知道。






to my dear zonex. love ya~ <3

story.

男孩用枪指着眼前的这个女人     才惊讶原来是女孩
女孩比男孩惊讶    手上握着的枪    也颤抖着
对眼了三秒    女孩用颤抖的声音尖叫着  
“我不玩了！”
她生气自己   无法在这情况下冷血的开枪
其实，女孩自己明白    她是不可能对男孩开枪
因为她比谁都还要深爱着他
那三秒钟， 问了自己：他爱不爱我，会不会杀我？
她犹豫了，她害怕答案是自己不想要的，所以选择放弃，想逃离这个让她失控的地方。




此时,男孩似乎明白了什么。他问她：“我知道了，答案就在上次Pasar Malam鞋档的对面！”
女孩点点头，眼角流下一滴泪。无奈他懂得好晚好晚。。。




女孩一不留神，戏剧化的，右边远方对自己开了一枪，左边不知名的地方也对自己开了一枪。在倒下以前，女孩眼里都是男孩，看着他思考的表情，紧张的表情，她是多么爱他！
男孩傻了， 冲向前，抱着渐渐倒下的女孩，向其他人嘶吼着：不要再开枪了！！！不要再开枪了！！！




女孩的体温很快流失。女孩想说话，但痛楚占据了她全身！眼里充满泪水，她吃力地用最后的力气说：“我。。刚。。才。。在。。想。。你。。会。。不。。会。。开。。枪。。杀。。我。。” 男孩什么都听不到，女孩的声音实在是太微弱。隐约之中，男孩看见女孩嘴角有一丝丝甜甜的笑容，似乎为了男孩在乎自己，舍不得开枪，而暗暗开心。男孩看着女孩的血一直流，一直流，疯狂的对其他旁观者吼道：“叫救护车！ 叫救护车！！”






此时，男孩的老大，摇摇摆摆地走了过来，手上的枪口，对准了躺在男孩怀里的女孩的头。这一枪如果开了，女孩是肯定没命了！男孩慌了，他知道老大是杀人不眨眼，他是不可能同情他和她，谁对他不利，他就杀谁。男孩没有求情，反之他说，老大！不要杀她！我用我的一条腿来换！女孩是听见的，她想用力地摇头，身子却不听使唤。老大迟疑了一下，念在男孩平日也挺忠心的。于是，他对男孩脚旁的地板上，开了一枪！冷冷地说道：“就这么一次。”   然后就大摇大摆的走掉。




女孩的泪像雪花落地般，轻轻的流下。男孩深情地望着她，告诉她说：会没事的。此时，她心中很甜，发现原来男孩也紧张她呢！她想她大概挨不下痛楚了吧，这大概是她死前老天爷给她最大的恩赐。每个女孩都希望在自己男孩怀里，离开这世界。她觉得自己是太幸运了。。






后来，女孩的眼睛慢慢闭上，男孩几次撕心裂肺地喊道：“不要闭上眼！不要睡！不要！看着我看着我！”  女孩仿佛用上，一辈子的力气，说了最后的话，就闭上眼睛，像是累了的孩子，睡着了。男孩听着她说的我爱你，XXX。眼泪也留了下来。那是痛心的泪，他恨自己，明白太晚。








-to be continue??-


dunno.














-end of blog-

ha。

我一定是疯了     才会这么喜欢他




-end-

dont want see you

我不想看见你
因为我看见你    就会加速肚子饿


因为我需要花三倍，四倍，五倍，刘备六倍，七倍 blah blah blah 的力气
来阻止


强烈跳动的心





♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

September of FEB

Yesterday night was a bad night.
*sigh*
People always said : Good Night, Sweet Dream.
But It doesn't happen to me yesterday night... I wish there is no one curse on me...
My right leg damn P-A-I-N without knowing any reason. Makes me cannot sleep well...
AND
the what-the-f*** MOSQUITO!!!!

(this is not my photo, stole from google)





I hate them and hope them kena 抄家.... ( I am bad hearted hor? ) LOL, I don't care!
I am going to buy the mosquito racket tomorrow..!
Is there anyone introduce me Good-Quality one? I spoiled two of them....
I was wondering am I treat them sooo badly?







Today Yh, Teng and me, 3 peoples go Sunway Carnival Sing K and watch movie.

Walao eh.. let Amp Square Dokkk ar.... RM27 per person.. Got a bit sim tia loh actually.. Zzzz
I prefer sing in the toilet.... Zzzz...

I left earlier after the singing section, coz I have to fetch my mum and brought her buy this and that... Oh ya, Teng, I doesn't tell anyone about my mum's things. Coz I dont like. So you sek zou la har... LOL xD


After that YH fetch me from home! how good is him huh~ (praise him awhile la)
cz he left ampsquare and comes my home fetch me... then back to sunway again.. touch lo... bwhahaha! (pretend to wipe away tears)


And this movie...  watch liao macam no watch.. I dont like, sorry.

I am sorry that let you both wait me in front of my house yet I haven't reach home...
Sorry la.. Me too 孝顺 ady... LOL....


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爱人与被爱  你选哪个？
I feel like I cannot and dont-want to WAIT ady loh.... =(


==

I feel like I am paying not much of effort on my bloggie compare to others.
Well. I will do it after I back to KL la.. Next week. =)
Night world. ♥

lolx~

我来告诉你   我有多喜欢他


发了一封简讯给他


然后握着电话等待他的回复

第一分钟，我觉得他在看着短信，

第二分钟，我觉得他在回复着你，

第三分钟，我开始检查手机有没有短信，

第四分钟，我开始在想他为什么那么慢回复，

第五分钟，我开始安慰自己说他没看见，

第六分钟，收起了手机以为等下就能收到回复，

第七分钟，掏出手机来看，我以为已经过了好久了，

第八分钟，等。

第九分钟，等。

第十分钟，等。

后来我在床边睡着了。。。

醒来后，还是握着电话，检查着他是否回了我短信。

后来的几个小时内，我还是不时不时地检查电话，

然后安慰自己说，他在忙，或是电话没钱了，又或者是没看见。。。

总是找一大堆的理由     因为我明白他   不是个那样的人

所以，等。

连我都觉得不可思议的等着~