War Ep10

Hello People, Sorry for not updating recently, cz I finished my exam deeeeee~~~ :) And guess what? I already back to hometown and enjoying my little sem break. weeeee~~ but this time I back silently, for those I didn't inform them I already back, I'm sorry. Quite busy recently. I think will start free from next week. :)

Haiz, Complete the war with a mistake. I failed to concentrate in my last paper. Guess the pointer of last paper will pull me down seriously. =( Anyway, That's not the time for me to emo now! 

Time to PLAY!! =))

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我有时候会怀疑你曾说的友谊万岁是不是说说就算

还是你只在乎你自己     

我安慰自己  只是你处理的方式与我不同

你不知道   当你说那句话的时候    我的心揪了一下

-Qian-

War Ep8

10.20pm
Just wake up from a little nap.
我是个抗压性不怎么好的人
遇到压力   受不住   我会倾诉
说完了    也许比较好过
我不确定旁人是不是愿意听    （当然如果你不愿意听，你可以告诉我）
不期望有什么很厉害的idea解决    有人听我讲   我已经很开心

下一张paper
我他X的  我快被整疯了
这个没有关系的subject 为什么会放在我的syllabus 里?
一直读着怎么样都读不懂的东西    很压力



我是个不爱吃零食的小孩    好久好久都没有吃零食了
你看我是不是很压力的说
刚才一边很用力的咬   很用力的思考

 

collection of mamee~ 

the following card is the same card but can view different picture in different angle. lolx. kids~ 

我不开心   却不知道怎么说



算了    读书去



-Qian-

War Ep7

Lol~ Miss Hng is so eager to ask me log in my facebook.
Haha! Sorry that I will not do that, because I don't have the password with me right now. LOL


Tomorrow will be my second paper. Status of that subject: OK.
I hate this kind of exam time table. It feels like you sliced the chicken's neck, and let it's blood flowing out like that. =((   I rather he give me one shoot and die faster. =((
I will be more hardworking in following days, because tougher subjects are leading me to hell. =((


By the way~ Ting Ting is coming back!! I not sure where is she now, because I C-A-N-T log in facebook right now. Lolx~ Ah Ting, I still using the same phone number (which Seyee choosed). Anything CALL ME!! love ya~~ <3


I feel like want dye my hair ( the third time I mentioned? ) lolx! My hair super messy since I tie it up Everyday... Was surveying which colour is darker, not so obvious while still acceptable in Hospital that I will be practical soon. But room mate suggest that original-super-black is a good way to give good first impression. But I wonder is that make me look childish? and some times the feel of mistrust?


Not much to write actually. Just a simple update to let ma readers know i'm still alive. LOL! To my lovers, wait for my back ya... :)))


No photo.cz I look worst.


Any part time introduced ?




-Love, Qian-

War Ep6

It's the first day of exam. As my expect, I nearly cant wake up on the morning. I set my alarm at 630am, but finally wake up at 8am. =,= exam starts at 930am.

I was so lucky cz yesterday night last minute saw some unfamiliar topic, and today comes out in exam!!

I was quite happy because I helped two uncles on the way I go lunch with Moon.

I was quite happy because my Ting Ting is coming back tomorrow!!

I was quite happy because Moon treat me Secret Recipe Meatball Spaghetti.

I was quite happy because the room is clear and I can concentrate on my study right now!!



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I dreamed MrKm yesterday night. He cried so badly in my dream, I can even see his tear. In the true world, he never shows his weakness. (All guys don't show perhaps? ) Decided to sms him and ask whether he ok not... LOL but end up, I didn't send out the msg.

I was so potential in dreaming nonsense. But sometimes you found funny when every night have different kind of weird weird stories. Not including nightmare.
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Good luck to my dear Seyee! Fighting for EXAMMMMM!!!!!!!!!! 

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I need a part time so badly..... =(

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Change layout to sea green!  Can't you feel the relax?  (was joking lolx.) 

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-Wait for next paper, Wednesday, Qian-

War Ep5

星期日
The last day for me to fight!
其实这整个星期走来
我太MOOD SWING 了
压力太大 perhaps?

比起前天的大怒   和昨天的大笑
天知道   我失控了

但庆幸的是
这次考试    没有像往常一样的发恶梦
然后哭着醒来
睡了好像没有睡酱


这次考试期间的睡眠比较搞笑
难入眠     然后昨天我竟然在梦中
看X-RAY片!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
走火了......


明天是第一场仗     老实说我没把握
会怎样呢？
怎么办呢？
不要睡不醒就好
一直在期待考完试后的日子
受够这样的日子


我好想去旅行    一个人
太需要放松自己    我快蹦窒息了

昨晚     我发现到       有些人有些事
已经回不去了
你变了    也或许我变了



原本想定回家的飞机票（当然是便宜的！）
最后没有定了
这次回家想坐巴士
最后一次  
就用当初来的方式        完整的 做总结吧~ ^^



by the way
那个那天被我骂的朋友
到现在没有主动联系我
你说她是不是生气了呢
给他时间消消气吧

我还是觉得我应该更用力控制自己的


-冷静,Qian-

War Ep4 - 爆炸

典型的金牛座   要嘛不发脾气   要嘛一发不可收拾
但也不是无理取闹    爆炸之前会给警告
如果是你的白目    那我也没办法了


人生总是有很多事情让你从中长大
我今天也上了一堂人生很宝贵的事
或许会影响我一辈子的事


我今天发了一个很大的脾气  也许是考试压力还是怎样   控制不到    所以脾气特别大

一个好朋友昨天约了我今天下午吃饭

我特地等他吃午饭

结果他迟到三个小时

我饿到胃痛

他来的时候   我发了个很大的脾气   真的像火山爆炸一样   杀伤指数上达90%
其实我不是生气他迟到     而是生气他没有交代
他知道他会迟到   却没有给我一个简讯    叫我先吃  
等三个小时    饿三个小时   打给他   不是说来着   就是直接不接电话 （他电话有些问题）
其实我也傻    太相信他    我应该先冷静处理我的饿    再来看要等多久
我怎么让自己的肚子受委屈    只相信他 的   “等一下”   就会到呢
我傻   太傻太傻


其实他人很好   只是有些坏习惯     会让旁边的人   受了些伤    受了些委屈
他不知道    他的忘记    或者是   懒惰    会伤了别人    会赔上不少代价     全只为了相信他


其实我不想发脾气的    因为胃痛     真的很痛     是他害的
因为他的漫不经心     让别人    受了委屈     甚至伤了身体
我有必要   让他知道    我没把这件事    当成是    不重要的事


我仔细想了一下    我发现我做了个重大的错误
接下来的半年   也许我会让自己陷入无比的痛苦当中
我希望我的忍耐力会变无限大！


lesson of today:
1） 感情再好的情侣   每天生活在一起   也需要彼此的空间   何况是朋友
2）别相信任何人的“等一下”   尤其是 “我快到了”  。
      当对方迟到的时候    做你想做的事    别委屈自己
3）不可以让自己饿肚子   除非没有钱



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to 你：
很抱歉今天失礼了
我不该发这么大的脾气
不应该对你这么大声  我应该控制自己的脾气
我应该好好地说    好好地跟你说   这所有的一切
我抱歉

我浪费太多的时间

我该好好读书的

-sorry to you and myself, Qian-

July 2011 part one

从小到大的朋友，伤害我一次又一次后，原谅一次又一次后，
终于感到厌恶。不想见你，连看到你的照片，从以前的可爱，都变成现在的恶心。

很抱歉，不是你的错，是我从前从前就开始傻，
把你我的友情放太重，殊不知，你从来就没有在乎过，一次又一次的加重伤害，
直到无法忍受，选择逃离，就算到世界的另一边，也想离开你，然安宁的生活再次开始。


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要大考了，会减少online.
最后一次了，会大大力 的加油！
祝福我吧~



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如果你有注意，每年的这天，我都会找你。今晚的聊天很愉快。希望永远都这样。如果时间倒回去，五年前的今天，我不会放开你的手。我很抱歉。一句话让双方都受伤。

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 Good bye my long hair. WTF.

别愚昧。别不大气。

拿别人的事来开玩笑 只会显得你的愚昧 


拿别人的玩笑来介意 只会显得你的不大气






也许是上天给我的考验
谢谢它让我在这个时候有机会成长


别人的流言蜚语
在乎后会跌入深海   然后被鲨鱼吃掉


会大大方方的接受
回复一个浅浅的微笑


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只是有时候会失望 
如果我做错了
请告诉我
以好的语气
我一定会接受的   保证




我们认识不短   何苦这么不体谅？ 
有些时候就别太过分了。。。 
我也有自己的难言之隐啊。何必硬在伤口上撒盐？外加  踹一脚？ 

super  kamxia    FISH ! love you super much! 

also kamxia chin lin and khai li also!! :-) 

shi-long.

终于知道不安感来自哪里了。

暂时对飞机场有恐惧。

怎么就逼我坐飞机呢？ 

o(︶︿︶)o唉

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I am sucks.

I cant believe what I did today!

Today is the first day after back from Mid Sem Break.
Well, I went late into both morning and afternoon classes.
Luckily, non of my lecturer blame to me.

And guess what?
Today should be the presentation day for the afternoon class,
and I didn't finish prepared.
When lecturer random chosen me,
I stood up and said I confess that I haven't done prepare.

Lecturer was so disappointed, because she put high expectation on me.
After the class, she still purposely wait for me when I go out from the class.
(I usually be the last one who left the class, because of my slow motion)
She told me she is disappointed on me.
And I was so..... down.


After I think twice what I've done wrong was,
I brought a hope that lecturer will not be choosing me!
This is the biggest problem. I think this negative attitude should be, no, is MUST eliminate from the inner me.




-damn me, Qian-

梦中的痕

这么重要的事  我一定要记录下来！


昨晚  我梦见我逝世了的姑姑
房子不太一样  但风格差不多
梦中的我  像是要去买一样东西
（我怎么都想不起是什么）

然后姑姑跟我说
走右边  走左边就是倒回去料  走右边才是对

梦中，左边像是一档档的小贩
看起来像不错吃的档口
右边是店家   其中一间是卖电脑accessory 的店

然后我母亲就递给我一把雨伞
coulourful 的。
然后我就出发了。

醒来的时候

眼睛很肿

还有明显的泪痕

显然已经下意识的哭过了

我习惯伪装我的脆弱

在别人面前  是怎么样都不哭的人

包括在姑姑的葬礼中

刚刚特地打电话给妈妈

讲一讲  声音开始哽咽

妈妈安慰我说这没什么的

然后我就赶紧换话题

有些时候  不表现出来   不代表  不难过  不思念  

A-fred

 

刚刚从班上回来。

此时此刻情绪实在复杂到极点，心情不好，压力很大，大到快喘不过气来了！

前途一片渺茫，无法掌舵未来的路，我很难受。

看不见的前方，我实在很惊慌。

措手不及的事件，比浪花还汹涌。

我很怕，能做的，只是皱着眉头，用力思考，却什么都得不到的无助感。

神啊，请给我继续下去的力量！

世人啊，我需要一个能给我勇气的拥抱！

-Qian-

share: 这个世界上、总有一个人分享我的世界、不是你、就是别人、而我、再也不会说可惜不是你了、应该说、幸好不是你。

I saw this in facebook.

share.. 

这个世界上、总有一个人分享我的世界、不是你、就是别人、而我、再也不会说可惜不是你了、应该说、幸好不是你。

不能。

我还做不到。

张小娴 说 ，需要时间和新欢。

LOL!!

来吧，新欢！

hahaha!! 

-Qian-

Orange vs. black sky.

(heavy photos post)

I suppose to have my moral presentation today. My alarm clock was ring me up at 7am.
(Fortunately or unfortunately? )
I received my class rep's sms at 7.45am.
'' Moral class canceled. ''
zzz.
*go back to bed*

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Today I get the T-shirts from Hometoomuch.com via Groupon that I have purchased last weeks.

It actually reached hostel few days ago, but I was in lovely hometown and enjoying my weekends. :)
So, I collected it today. Feel quite excited actually. ^^

After opened it. Hmm, quite satisfied~ :):)

 

Afternoon, when I read newspaper (borrowed from room mate) , 

and I found this. 

Meal of the day. 

aunty, can you explain to me, why my SIMPLE LUNCH cost me Rm4.50? 

#^&%$^%

Spaghetti, which cooked by apu-ne-ne. 

The taste really special. 

little spicy and special meet. :)

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There was a sudden rain at evening, 

The sky turns black. 

After a quick rain, it changed into ORANGE. 

I think my stupid camera didn't perform what it actually be. 

*sigh* I should get myself a better camera. Any sponsor please?  ^^

before rain 

after short quick rain, part of the sky still black.. 

Guess what? It shows RAINBOW! 
omg. I love rainbow so much!! ^^
turn into happier mood~ 

I done nothing today. *sigh* 

Rain so heavely now, even the indoor temperature is sooo cold. 

I cant believe that I wearing long pants now.. -.-

Hello, Malaysia leh... 

I miss him. 

其实我没钱

有时候   会需要你体谅
也许会kiam siap 一点
但   我北上南下的费用
已经占据我的一半


请原谅我
我是个黏家的怪物
请原谅我
我只是想念我的母亲父亲


我没有表面上的金玉其外
我只是个学生
没有收入的学生


请容许我
不至于在宿舍吃泡面
不至于下雨的时候没钱坐德士



很抱歉
其实路边的果条汤我也吃得很开心
不必山珍海味
槟城的食物  样样都好吃



我没有emo,纯粹表达想法
也许手法 语文 音调上
让人误解  我emo 了
那抱歉啦


晚安




-Qian-

pattern banyak eh..

刚才上完课后，回到房间的时候，发现自己忘了带钥匙。-.-
昨天也是酱！
不好意思像昨天一样吵醒 room mate， 所以决定到图书馆去吹冷气。
顺便ACT 读书一下。
后来遇到一个老同学
好久不见。聊着聊着，他问我最近的relationship
"单身"  I said.
然后blah blah blah 假死探听我最近几年的love history...
lolxx... 当然是转来转去lah..


后来他问起你，我说我们只是normal friend.
他说，想见面吗？
我，FAKE A SMILE (from kean ming)， 然后说： 哈。哈。还好。


后来他离开后，这个问题让我stunned 很久，冲凉也在想。
想见面吗？
*想*
*想*
*想*
后来我给自己的answer 是 飞机票很贵。 LOL。 白痴的答案我知道。


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昨天看我的facebook 的人应该有看到，
kean ming 给我的answer 是
‎1. OLD friend la u...
2. always laugh at my jokes
3. write blog also banyak pattern
4. sometimes fake a smile, like 周星驰 in 你不是真正的快乐
5. miss me alot~




哈哈哈！
想一想，是觉得很对一下！
fake a smile, like 周星驰 in 你不是真正的快乐
其实本人的情绪起伏真的真的很不大
如果世界允许，我会一直没有表情下去。
原本的躯壳应该是没有表情的。我猜。
啊啊啊啊。没有表情也不是我想的！
我也不知道是怎么回事儿~
LOL.... xD



by the way, you also laugh at my jokes too! *blerk*
blog pattern banyak good ma.. no good meh? no good meh you say? no good meh?!
fong kean ming,
your pattern more than mine!
hiao ka si, ask ppl go and like,
now write till bolat ady hor.. eng gai belly siok.. xD xD
hahahaha!
and yes, I miss you.


Oh ya, esther, I will still say ''fu** u" even it spoiled my image. hehe.. :):)

Stress!

There are 7days in a week.
24hours in a day.
60minutes in a hour.

And I have not enough of time to finish all my stuff!

I got damn lot of things to do!!!



Argghhhhhh!!!!
Stress out!!!!






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Worshipping ancestorrrr

I got a lot of things to spread out, but don’t know where do I start from.  

Just back from worshipping ancestor, don’t understand this word? It’s okay. I just learned it yesterday too. It means Cheng Beng, cool right? Lol. Anyway, I missed my grandparents, even seems like I don’t have much memories with them, but the kinship never make me feel strange to them. 

okay i know it's ugly. So what?!

Oh, there’s an incident during I went to my grandma’s grave. I saw some-kind like snake molting-skin with some black body inside! And the fucking thing was, I nearly STEP on it! WTF!! I can’t imagine what how if I step on it, and it turns back and bites me! Fucking Bitch! I don’t even is there any hospital nearby, because it surrounds with typical jungle. Immediately I screamed and run-off. Sorry for no photo on that.  What the fuck thanks god for not letting it bites me.

Take a deep breath and continue phewwww…. We finished cleaning and worshipping grandpa and grandma’s grave at 12pm. Mr Sun kissed my skin so hardly until I feel shy. Which means my face goes red. LOlx. Sampat. But the fact is, it’s such a long time I didn’t expose under the sun, I am the type of takes hardly long time to return my skin tone to original color. Sad.

Lastly, return to own home around 8pm. Settle dinner at Chai Leng Park with the Lap-Qiong Rice. Choose it because of curious that so many people queue up for the Lap-Qiong stall. But after taste the rice, I just feel okay.

Ignore me. I crap.

Young people especially after 90s, loves to self-take picture no matter where when what. Even a normal comb or even breakfast, they take photos and upload, they called this s-h-a-r-e. And I am the one who did so. I can’t live without a phone without camera function, and totally dependence of it. All I did in daily life; I capture it down and record all of it. Otherwise, this incident will totally wiped off and I forgot it was happened once upon a time. And this so-called Blog, is where I share my story with world, by picking some happening.

Girl loves pretty. But I am not pretty at all, seriously. Maybe you said me fake? Oh well, I don’t care. I am just a normal girl with long hair. Long hair doesn’t mean pretty okayyy.  But the fact is I am a girl, I am trying hard to make myself to be prettier. I never blame to God that don’t give me a pretty eyes, nose blah blah blah. In fact, I thanks to God because he let me see the colorful world with these small eyes, he let me now sitting at here and types out what I feel with ten fingers, and he let me laugh-out-loud in front of peoples with this mouth and thick lips.  

Okay, I crap a lot. Combine these two paragraphs.

In the *-*-h-o-v-a-h’s  photograph, *stunned* *sigh*, It proves that I am not a leng lui. You feel my photos in wherever nice is just because I found the right angle to me. Unfortunately, What I saw in the photography, is a chee-sin girl stand there and let him snap. Zzz. I realized that my hair style was so wtf. Regret for not listening yt’s advise to keep tidy my hair. Realized that I was in public area with this gerlii hairstyle so long time. Well. I will be in saloon right tomorrow.  Most of the pic without looking at camera was ‘’steal-snap’’. And my hair… sigh… 

没关系有我在

有天  我说  


 我累了


那个男孩说   


 没关系  有我在