share： 平常心

没有过不去的事情，只有过不去的心情。很多事情我们之所以过不去是因为我​们心里放不下，比如被欺骗了报复放不下，被讽刺了怨恨放不下，被批评了面子放不下。大​部分人都只在乎事情本身并沉迷于事情带来的不愉快的心情。其实只要把心情变一下，世界​就完全不同了。

War Ep9

真的是废话很多

一下子就到Ep9了

刚刚考完第三张paper 回来

考得真是有点不堪入目啊~ 

然后due to 昨晚被coursemate吓了一大跳后

整个晚上不能睡   哈   我知道我俗喇

真的是吓到那种    像 baby被雷吓到

整个晚上很restless  脑中一直浮现他们恐怖的脸庞

（哈。俗喇！）

不过自己也不对

然后在班上又做很冲动的事

（我很怀疑   最近是不是头壳坏掉）

算了  坏的事情就算了过去了

刚才跑去听心经   p/s: 本人拜观音的

然后心情就好很多   很神奇

（没有在传教啦拜托）

下个星期二就考完试了

然后整理    就可以回家了~~！！！

超期待的~~~~~

ting ting! 等我等我！！ ;-)

-Tired ka bua si, Qian-

War Ep8

10.20pm
Just wake up from a little nap.
我是个抗压性不怎么好的人
遇到压力   受不住   我会倾诉
说完了    也许比较好过
我不确定旁人是不是愿意听    （当然如果你不愿意听，你可以告诉我）
不期望有什么很厉害的idea解决    有人听我讲   我已经很开心

下一张paper
我他X的  我快被整疯了
这个没有关系的subject 为什么会放在我的syllabus 里?
一直读着怎么样都读不懂的东西    很压力



我是个不爱吃零食的小孩    好久好久都没有吃零食了
你看我是不是很压力的说
刚才一边很用力的咬   很用力的思考

 

collection of mamee~ 

the following card is the same card but can view different picture in different angle. lolx. kids~ 

我不开心   却不知道怎么说



算了    读书去



-Qian-

War Ep7

Lol~ Miss Hng is so eager to ask me log in my facebook.
Haha! Sorry that I will not do that, because I don't have the password with me right now. LOL


Tomorrow will be my second paper. Status of that subject: OK.
I hate this kind of exam time table. It feels like you sliced the chicken's neck, and let it's blood flowing out like that. =((   I rather he give me one shoot and die faster. =((
I will be more hardworking in following days, because tougher subjects are leading me to hell. =((


By the way~ Ting Ting is coming back!! I not sure where is she now, because I C-A-N-T log in facebook right now. Lolx~ Ah Ting, I still using the same phone number (which Seyee choosed). Anything CALL ME!! love ya~~ <3


I feel like want dye my hair ( the third time I mentioned? ) lolx! My hair super messy since I tie it up Everyday... Was surveying which colour is darker, not so obvious while still acceptable in Hospital that I will be practical soon. But room mate suggest that original-super-black is a good way to give good first impression. But I wonder is that make me look childish? and some times the feel of mistrust?


Not much to write actually. Just a simple update to let ma readers know i'm still alive. LOL! To my lovers, wait for my back ya... :)))


No photo.cz I look worst.


Any part time introduced ?




-Love, Qian-

War Ep6

It's the first day of exam. As my expect, I nearly cant wake up on the morning. I set my alarm at 630am, but finally wake up at 8am. =,= exam starts at 930am.

I was so lucky cz yesterday night last minute saw some unfamiliar topic, and today comes out in exam!!

I was quite happy because I helped two uncles on the way I go lunch with Moon.

I was quite happy because my Ting Ting is coming back tomorrow!!

I was quite happy because Moon treat me Secret Recipe Meatball Spaghetti.

I was quite happy because the room is clear and I can concentrate on my study right now!!



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I dreamed MrKm yesterday night. He cried so badly in my dream, I can even see his tear. In the true world, he never shows his weakness. (All guys don't show perhaps? ) Decided to sms him and ask whether he ok not... LOL but end up, I didn't send out the msg.

I was so potential in dreaming nonsense. But sometimes you found funny when every night have different kind of weird weird stories. Not including nightmare.
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Good luck to my dear Seyee! Fighting for EXAMMMMM!!!!!!!!!! 

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I need a part time so badly..... =(

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Change layout to sea green!  Can't you feel the relax?  (was joking lolx.) 

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-Wait for next paper, Wednesday, Qian-

War Ep5

星期日
The last day for me to fight!
其实这整个星期走来
我太MOOD SWING 了
压力太大 perhaps?

比起前天的大怒   和昨天的大笑
天知道   我失控了

但庆幸的是
这次考试    没有像往常一样的发恶梦
然后哭着醒来
睡了好像没有睡酱


这次考试期间的睡眠比较搞笑
难入眠     然后昨天我竟然在梦中
看X-RAY片!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
走火了......


明天是第一场仗     老实说我没把握
会怎样呢？
怎么办呢？
不要睡不醒就好
一直在期待考完试后的日子
受够这样的日子


我好想去旅行    一个人
太需要放松自己    我快蹦窒息了

昨晚     我发现到       有些人有些事
已经回不去了
你变了    也或许我变了



原本想定回家的飞机票（当然是便宜的！）
最后没有定了
这次回家想坐巴士
最后一次  
就用当初来的方式        完整的 做总结吧~ ^^



by the way
那个那天被我骂的朋友
到现在没有主动联系我
你说她是不是生气了呢
给他时间消消气吧

我还是觉得我应该更用力控制自己的


-冷静,Qian-

War Ep4 - 爆炸

典型的金牛座   要嘛不发脾气   要嘛一发不可收拾
但也不是无理取闹    爆炸之前会给警告
如果是你的白目    那我也没办法了


人生总是有很多事情让你从中长大
我今天也上了一堂人生很宝贵的事
或许会影响我一辈子的事


我今天发了一个很大的脾气  也许是考试压力还是怎样   控制不到    所以脾气特别大

一个好朋友昨天约了我今天下午吃饭

我特地等他吃午饭

结果他迟到三个小时

我饿到胃痛

他来的时候   我发了个很大的脾气   真的像火山爆炸一样   杀伤指数上达90%
其实我不是生气他迟到     而是生气他没有交代
他知道他会迟到   却没有给我一个简讯    叫我先吃  
等三个小时    饿三个小时   打给他   不是说来着   就是直接不接电话 （他电话有些问题）
其实我也傻    太相信他    我应该先冷静处理我的饿    再来看要等多久
我怎么让自己的肚子受委屈    只相信他 的   “等一下”   就会到呢
我傻   太傻太傻


其实他人很好   只是有些坏习惯     会让旁边的人   受了些伤    受了些委屈
他不知道    他的忘记    或者是   懒惰    会伤了别人    会赔上不少代价     全只为了相信他


其实我不想发脾气的    因为胃痛     真的很痛     是他害的
因为他的漫不经心     让别人    受了委屈     甚至伤了身体
我有必要   让他知道    我没把这件事    当成是    不重要的事


我仔细想了一下    我发现我做了个重大的错误
接下来的半年   也许我会让自己陷入无比的痛苦当中
我希望我的忍耐力会变无限大！


lesson of today:
1） 感情再好的情侣   每天生活在一起   也需要彼此的空间   何况是朋友
2）别相信任何人的“等一下”   尤其是 “我快到了”  。
      当对方迟到的时候    做你想做的事    别委屈自己
3）不可以让自己饿肚子   除非没有钱



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to 你：
很抱歉今天失礼了
我不该发这么大的脾气
不应该对你这么大声  我应该控制自己的脾气
我应该好好地说    好好地跟你说   这所有的一切
我抱歉

我浪费太多的时间

我该好好读书的

-sorry to you and myself, Qian-

War Ep3

Calender shows Wednesday.
Ish. Time passed damn slow.
Wish to go back home now.
LOL. Yesterday I just told my room mate that I don't want to go home.
Who cares? Girls are Mercurial.


 2weeks more only I can go home.
6days more my Ting Ting will come back.
(I know you super happy when I mention you at here.)
(Yer. Sui de ni.... hahahahah) (this is what she normally responds. LOL)
5days more to sit for 1st paper.



Not enough of pocket money. How?
Lack of time to work part time. How?
Go rob la BAN.




-tired for study, Qian-

War Ep2

OMG IT'S 10PM!!
Ok I must have a quick blog here then starts my revision today!
(It's terrible right? 10pm only start revision)


Ok, let me tell you today's life.
(The way for me to release study stress is blogging. weird enough I know) =P

Morning, Moon and me go to Pusat Bandar Damansara main campus to settle our college things.
And I late for half an hour because I woke up late and I call no taxi.
Sorry Miss Moon.


Afternoon, Wong, Lana, Moon and me go to Sunway Pyramid to have our lunch at Shogun.
They urge to eat Shogun since last few weeks, finally we found some free time to go.
(actually not that free also. exam kayy -.-)
I not sure how Moon can gets all of us 30% off. weee~
After division, it's around 43++ per person.
Think this might be our last gather before our graduation.
That's why they want to have a not cheap valuable one. lol.


After that, we watch Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2. 
I don't think its really nice. 
A bit she-bu-de the childhood story that follow us to grow up ends by this way. 
Anyway, concentrate in exam! 

At Shogun. Moon is awesome in this pic. But I don't get her permission to public her. 

Okay, back to study!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fighting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tmd




-Tired Qian-

Disappointment

( Dear readers, this post is only for my mum. You can scroll down to next post or just escape.
No worries, mum is English-educated. She found my blog, cool right? )

Dear mum, 

Its kind of disappointed that you can't come to my college. 

I am sorry for recent bad temper due to stress of final exam, 

I apologized for my bad attitude. 

Recent phone talk make me frustrated because you unable manage to make a last visit on me. 

I am sad, sincerely. 

I don't like that Uncle Tai since few years ago. 

Because of moral respect issue, I still greet him every time he comes to us. 

You might not know all of your children dislike him, including me. 

I don't like he always disturb our family gather dinner which may held once a week. 

And guess what, you still manage to ask him come to my college and bring me back home with dad?!

OH NO!! I DON'T WANT!! I rather take bus or even take 8-hours train to go home. 

It's doesn't matter to me for travelling here and there alone since 18years old. 

I understand that you have to work, and take care of brothers and sister at the same time. 

I try not to be that childish and understanding everything, like your usual good daughter. 

But I just can't stand for the disappointment. 

That's why my tone in the phone was like ignorance and nothing-to-talk-more. I scare I cry again. 

Anyway, if that is your final decision. I will accept it. But with deep heart, I hope you could come. 

No worries, I still love you always. 

-Your daughter, Queen- 

War Ep1

Student's war usually refers to Examination.
Well, Im going to sit on my final on 25th July.
Actually there's lack of time to me to cover all the syllabus.
But anyway, I have to blog something or say something before I goes into Psycho. lol.
Actually there is not much chapters I have to study, but the subject is covered too much subtopic. That's why.


2nd of August will be my last paper, and after all I will check out my stupid lovely-warm hostel. Then back to my lovely hometown! OMGG, I just can't wait for it! Moreover my dearest Ting is coming back from Korea!!! Wait for dunno how many years ady... 2years?? lolx. not important anymore. She's coming backkkkkk..!


Oh ya, I cut my hair short a bit. Much regret on it. All rebonding parts have been cut off. And my current hair just make me looks messy and sleepy. Ishh. Planning to have new hairstyle, but Unfortunately, practical session at hospital going to start soon, so no any fashion hairstyle is allowed to do. >< *sad*

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The snack that I like since im a little girl. I remembered my grandpa always brought back a super big packet of it, all of his grandchildren super excited when see it. It normally finished in 2hours.

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had great time with star .   and i miss you . 

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WAR!! FIGHTINGGG!!!! 

- Fighting, Qian - 

July 2011 part one

从小到大的朋友，伤害我一次又一次后，原谅一次又一次后，
终于感到厌恶。不想见你，连看到你的照片，从以前的可爱，都变成现在的恶心。

很抱歉，不是你的错，是我从前从前就开始傻，
把你我的友情放太重，殊不知，你从来就没有在乎过，一次又一次的加重伤害，
直到无法忍受，选择逃离，就算到世界的另一边，也想离开你，然安宁的生活再次开始。


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要大考了，会减少online.
最后一次了，会大大力 的加油！
祝福我吧~



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如果你有注意，每年的这天，我都会找你。今晚的聊天很愉快。希望永远都这样。如果时间倒回去，五年前的今天，我不会放开你的手。我很抱歉。一句话让双方都受伤。

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 Good bye my long hair. WTF.

别愚昧。别不大气。

拿别人的事来开玩笑 只会显得你的愚昧 


拿别人的玩笑来介意 只会显得你的不大气






也许是上天给我的考验
谢谢它让我在这个时候有机会成长


别人的流言蜚语
在乎后会跌入深海   然后被鲨鱼吃掉


会大大方方的接受
回复一个浅浅的微笑


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只是有时候会失望 
如果我做错了
请告诉我
以好的语气
我一定会接受的   保证




我们认识不短   何苦这么不体谅？ 
有些时候就别太过分了。。。 
我也有自己的难言之隐啊。何必硬在伤口上撒盐？外加  踹一脚？ 

super  kamxia    FISH ! love you super much! 

also kamxia chin lin and khai li also!! :-) 

shi-long.

终于知道不安感来自哪里了。

暂时对飞机场有恐惧。

怎么就逼我坐飞机呢？ 

o(︶︿︶)o唉

-end-

happy Vs unhappy

Just came back from SS2 Pasar Malam! Already reach hostel and almost finish those dinner da-bao from there.
And I still having my happy mood.
God knows I already wait for 2 months for my room mate, who practical at Melaka for last 2 months.
I will never go there alone because of I SKED.
LOL..

Anyway, finally I have the chance go there before finish my sem5.
And I will spend my whole Sem6 in Penang, which, I will have my practical at there for one month!
Weee~~~ Miss home! :) :)

Big head laughed me, he said I am PBSM (Persatuan Balik Setiap Minggu) LMAO...

Actually I just back every month... Aduih..



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Recently got a lot of test and presentation. Restless!
Tml got two more tests again, morning one, and afternoon one.
Arghh...
Maybe because of tonnes of stress,
yesterday I had a wtf nightmare.
I dreamed my kai ma's little son, who only 3years old, grabbed by a robber. er, robber? not sure.
then, he forced the little one,
pointing the burner into the his's mouth, and burn it!!! PAINNNNN
WTF!!
I know it's a dream, but I still heard the kid's scream and cry loud!!
It's creepy and make my heartbeat stop!
And I wake.
I look at my cell phone and it shows 5.45am.
Argh.. I have to back to normal heart rate..........
What the hell is this dream? Is there anything God wants me to know?

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I miss you








-Qian-