i am sorry

大家都出现的地方  为什么我的出现   
就造成这样的质疑和轰动   是我不够好吗？ 还是我没资格？



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Welcome Billy! ♥

Welcome new member!
His name is BILLY!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Awww! I love it so much!! 

^^ 

Will bring you go everytime I travel~ ^^

Next week bring you go sit aeroplane~ ^^

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

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Worshipping ancestorrrr

I got a lot of things to spread out, but don’t know where do I start from.  

Just back from worshipping ancestor, don’t understand this word? It’s okay. I just learned it yesterday too. It means Cheng Beng, cool right? Lol. Anyway, I missed my grandparents, even seems like I don’t have much memories with them, but the kinship never make me feel strange to them. 

okay i know it's ugly. So what?!

Oh, there’s an incident during I went to my grandma’s grave. I saw some-kind like snake molting-skin with some black body inside! And the fucking thing was, I nearly STEP on it! WTF!! I can’t imagine what how if I step on it, and it turns back and bites me! Fucking Bitch! I don’t even is there any hospital nearby, because it surrounds with typical jungle. Immediately I screamed and run-off. Sorry for no photo on that.  What the fuck thanks god for not letting it bites me.

Take a deep breath and continue phewwww…. We finished cleaning and worshipping grandpa and grandma’s grave at 12pm. Mr Sun kissed my skin so hardly until I feel shy. Which means my face goes red. LOlx. Sampat. But the fact is, it’s such a long time I didn’t expose under the sun, I am the type of takes hardly long time to return my skin tone to original color. Sad.

Lastly, return to own home around 8pm. Settle dinner at Chai Leng Park with the Lap-Qiong Rice. Choose it because of curious that so many people queue up for the Lap-Qiong stall. But after taste the rice, I just feel okay.

Ignore me. I crap.

Young people especially after 90s, loves to self-take picture no matter where when what. Even a normal comb or even breakfast, they take photos and upload, they called this s-h-a-r-e. And I am the one who did so. I can’t live without a phone without camera function, and totally dependence of it. All I did in daily life; I capture it down and record all of it. Otherwise, this incident will totally wiped off and I forgot it was happened once upon a time. And this so-called Blog, is where I share my story with world, by picking some happening.

Girl loves pretty. But I am not pretty at all, seriously. Maybe you said me fake? Oh well, I don’t care. I am just a normal girl with long hair. Long hair doesn’t mean pretty okayyy.  But the fact is I am a girl, I am trying hard to make myself to be prettier. I never blame to God that don’t give me a pretty eyes, nose blah blah blah. In fact, I thanks to God because he let me see the colorful world with these small eyes, he let me now sitting at here and types out what I feel with ten fingers, and he let me laugh-out-loud in front of peoples with this mouth and thick lips.  

Okay, I crap a lot. Combine these two paragraphs.

In the *-*-h-o-v-a-h’s  photograph, *stunned* *sigh*, It proves that I am not a leng lui. You feel my photos in wherever nice is just because I found the right angle to me. Unfortunately, What I saw in the photography, is a chee-sin girl stand there and let him snap. Zzz. I realized that my hair style was so wtf. Regret for not listening yt’s advise to keep tidy my hair. Realized that I was in public area with this gerlii hairstyle so long time. Well. I will be in saloon right tomorrow.  Most of the pic without looking at camera was ‘’steal-snap’’. And my hair… sigh… 

share: 系上鞋带

share: 淡淡的…………无题

i not sure whether I share it before not. Anyway, just share. 

1. 成熟不是人的心 变老，是泪在打转 还能微笑。

2. 蹲下来抚摸自己的影子，对不起让你受委屈了。

3. 主动久了会很累， 在乎久了会崩溃

4. 爱情就像笑话，笑死了别人，笑疼了自己。

5. 只剩记忆可以炫耀，即使说说也好。

6. 如果真相是种伤害， 请选择谎言。 如果谎言是一种伤害， 请选择沉默。如果沉默是一种伤害， 请选择离开。

7. 有时候，你不得不假装很快乐，只是为了不让别人问“你怎么了？”

8. 看着别人的故事，流着自己的眼泪。

9. 原来爱情的世界很大，大到可以装下上百种委屈；原来爱情的世界很小，小到三个人就挤到窒息。

10. 我們把內心旳瘋狂鎖住，為的不是怕嚇著別人而是怕嚇著自己。

11.  两个人吵架，先说对不起的人并不是认输了，并不是原谅了。他只是比对方更珍惜这份感情。

12. 爱那么短，遗忘那么长。

13. 我还在原地等你，你却已经忘记曾来过这里。

14. 我从不喜欢让别人看见我的眼泪，我宁可让别人觉得我快乐的没心没肺，也不愿让自己看起来委屈可怜。

15. 停下来休息的时候，不要忘记别人还在奔跑。 

16. 我们始终都在练习微笑，终于变成不敢哭的人。

17. 人的一生只有5%是精彩的，也只有5%是痛苦的，另外90%是平淡的；人们往往被5%的精彩诱惑着，忍受着5%的痛苦，在90%的平淡中度过。

18. 当面对两个选择时，抛硬币总能奏效，并不是因为它总能给出对的答案，而是在你把它抛在空中的那一秒里，你突然知道你希望它是什么。

[转自 微博]

share：不一定

不喊痛，不一定没感觉。不要求，不一定没期待。不落泪，不一定没伤痕。不说话，不一定没心声 ------ 沉默，不代表自己没话说。离开，不代表自己很潇洒。快乐，不代表自己没伤心。 幸福，不代表自己没痛过。






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to heaven

Song suggestion for reading this post.

今夜 我很想念姑姑

那个鼻鼾声很大声

那个总是说我漂亮

那个吃吃吃不停的姑姑

我真的真的真的很想念她

从她的葬礼到现在 我没哭过 因为眼泪无法证明我有多难过

也许不愿意承认

也许无法接受事实

总是 总是 觉得她在我身边

她是我最亲的亲人

您在天堂好吗？吃得饱吗？穿得暖吗？

无法说出口的爱 献上鲜花 请安息

to zonex!

因为你是我最好的朋友， 

我可以毫不掩饰自己的狼狈与悲伤， 

因为你会装作看不见你相信我能坚强勇敢， 

其实我的狼狈与难堪你都知道。






to my dear zonex. love ya~ <3

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女孩与一个好久不见的朋友 通了电话

聊了聊后

朋友告诉女孩

男孩已经秘密地和另一个女孩结婚了（XY）

女孩听后震惊  电话那头传来劝女孩放弃的声音

听见自己心碎洒落满地的声音   女孩装着若无其事和友人谈多两句后  挂上电话

 

她蹲下抱住自己的双腿   难过得流不出眼泪   用力地整理碎落满地的心

没关系有我在

有天  我说  


 我累了


那个男孩说   


 没关系  有我在

.

今夜我想了很多 多到自己都不懂要如何整理成文字。
我累了，泪了。我不知道自己还可以白痴兼白目多久。深知是自己骗自己，却害怕认清事实，用力把自己骗到谎言的最顶点，告诉自己是还有希望的，就算有多渺茫。够了，够了，这句话说了几千遍，却还是往下陷。他多好？能对我多好？我想要的答案，永远和现实中的不一样。我到底在期待些什么。在没有希望的烂泥中挣扎，就算把自己逼到深不见底的洞也不愿看清事实？我在骗自己些什么？很好奇，我是用着什么勇气与耐力在坚持着。每天开心的笑着，等着，一等，就等了好久好久。








给自己最后的期限，我生日的那天，倘若一切都是错觉，倘若一切只是我的一厢情愿，我愿意承担后果，愿意放下，愿意忘记你，愿意给自己一个机会，做回自己。






如果有一天我累了，无法再站在原地等你的回头，请原谅我，我不是不爱你了，只是我的爱一直等不到回应。










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Battle of LA vs Japan Disaster

Hello readers. So lucky I have some free time on Saturday night. =))

Condition in Japan makes me think a lot. I may not help much, but I sincerely wish them safe and healthy and pass through this scary moment faster.

Weekends is means to RELAX! I went to Sunway carnival with Mr Cow and Miss Ying for the movie, Battle of Los Angeles.

The story is telling how brave and the way the marine army save the world. They used their courage and intelligent to solve and attack the so-called Alien. Blah Blah Blah.
Some of the scene, reminds me the Japan earthquake disaster.


核电厂的福岛50人用着他们的生命来救着日本人和全世界。说实在的，辐射这等事，不是开玩笑，长时间曝露在高剂量的辐射下，会带来基因改变，最后死亡。对于他们的牺牲，我实在是至上一百万分的敬意。电影中，看见勇士们一个个为了保家卫国，牺牲自己，坚强自己的意念，誓死保护国家，就和日本福岛的死士们一样。

Let's watch this video clip:

蘋果日報 - 2011-03-19 - 福島死士等候死刑到來短訊遺言：坦然接受命運   

地球变了，请爱护地球。

sharing: 致:我未来的丈夫~

saw from facebook. Another sharing here. 

一、给我一个难忘的求婚，不需要它有多么奢华，只要它让我在想起时，觉得自己的成长是完整而甜蜜的。娶我，做我的丈夫，我不需要你有多么高大和英俊，只要你完全爱我，有一个能包容我的小任性，小娇气的宽广胸怀。

　　二、你要对我负责，有一个健康的身体，因为它承担着家庭的责任，请不要轻易的用酒精，尼古丁，过度的劳累，透支的睡眠去伤害它。

       三、假如我们很穷，我只要你有一颗进取的心，我愿意尽我微薄的力量去改善我们的生活，和你一起面对贫困，失败，挫折，疾病……但是，请你，一定，一定要保持积极乐观的心态，永远不要放弃对生活的热爱与追求。

       四、我不需要你挣很多很多钱，其实人实际需要的很少，我希望你能推开一切不必要的应酬，陪我做点小家务，学会帮孩子换尿布，给他讲大灰狼，和我们看卡通电影……当孩子长大时，你会明白这些琐碎是多么的温馨而珍贵。

    五、经常问候我的父母，让他们知道你的关心，他们会感觉到能把女儿嫁给你，是一件多么幸运和开心的事。而我会发自内心地心疼你的父母，虽然我很笨，但我会尽力把他们的儿子照顾好！

      六、如果你在外面受了气或不开心，请不要一个人抽闷烟喝闷酒。我是你的妻子，我要和你一起承担，请向我发劳骚，让我抱着你睡。你的开心也请和我一起分享，让我为你欢呼和庆祝。

      七、我健忘，任性，有时会偷懒到不收拾房间，不洗衣服……请你不要发脾气，那只是我暂时的放松，只要你宠爱地把我抱在怀里，说我小笨蛋小懒虫，然后假装帮我去收拾……我会幸福到乐滋滋去把它们做好。

       八、我们会有各自的朋友圈，朋友的作用有时是爱人代替不了的。我希望我们能尊重对方的朋友，彼此信任，当我的朋友需要安慰时，麻烦你照顾孩子，让我去为他们尽一份心。而你的朋友需要你，晚上不能回家时，请你给我打电话报平安，家里灯不会灭，门不会反锁。

      九、我知道我一定不是最美丽最聪慧的女子，我有许许多多的缺点，但我会尽量的去提升和完善自己，让自己健康，自信，漂亮，贤惠，让你的朋友提起我时，都说你的太太挺不错的。我也希望别人向我提起你时说，你先生挺能干的，看上去精力充沛。

      十、如果我累了，有条件做一个居家小女人时，请让我休息，我不能为家庭做出经济贡献，但我向你保证，当你回到家时，你看到的会是一张温和的笑脸，泡好的茶，干净的房间和洗好的臭袜子。尽管我分不清豆芽和青菜，但我会照着《美食大全》，努力把自己培养成为天下最伟大的厨娘。

       十一、婚姻生活是平淡的。我希望我们都能以乐观，平静，感恩的心去度过甚至是享受这种平淡，在柴米油盐和做不完的家务中寻找乐趣。我向你保证，我绝对忠诚于你，忠诚于我们的婚姻和家庭。若是有一天，你厌倦了，遇见让你更为倾心的女子，我一定会吃醋，生气，伤心甚至吵闹，那是因为我舍不得你。

  

    十二、当我们70岁时，我希望我们仍然为彼此点上蜡烛，你像当年一样，握着我不再柔润的双手，深情的对我说：“感谢上苍，赐给我一个世界上最美丽最可爱，只是没有牙齿的老太婆！”而我也如当年一般调皮，捏着你满是皱纹的脸：“感谢老天爷，让我捡到一个本世纪最英俊最聪明，只是驼了背的老头子！”

     十三、我爱你

因果报应

我是佛教徒   从来都是相信因果报应




跟你说一个故事








昨天，我看着我家弟弟的割伤的手，然后笑他：

哈哈哈！做么割酱小？应该割大一点嘛。。。XD

我家弟弟：

=.=

然后十五分钟后，
我被纸 割伤！






对，你没有看错，是纸。我也不知道怎样割。我的手滑过一叠纸，就留下伤口。 =/=




=.=

实在是报应。。。。 

Hello Sem Break I love you!

Hello readers, finally i am here drop by and say a HELLLLLLLOOOOOO


Ohya, I finish my final exam at last week. Guess what? I am enjoying my SEM BREAK right now!! Woots! *excited*

But, I still have to busy a tonnes of things, so I cant back to my sweetie Penang yet. Maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow? I will go back... My lovely parents are missing me badly.. Muahaha! They keep asking why I still haven't go back even after my final exam... I am sorry, I am busy. I still have a lot of story to share. =)




My friend who make me angry for last week. He apologized. I forgive. The reason he gave me was he DRUNK... -,-  in case you don't know the story, click here.


okay fine. at least you apologize. please don't scold me if I done nothing wrong. Thank you. otherwise I will get mad uncontrollably.  I am sorry for my immature. On the progress to grow. wish me.




Okay. That's all for today. I am busy. =)

Because I didn't forget? -,-

我呢，是很不想很不想发脾气的

但是，睡了一觉起来，我还是觉得怒火中烧

First of all, 我不知道你吃到什么炸药咯。

突然之间  好像Nuclear atom 酱

炸到剩下骨灰

kanasai 你

我从头到尾  都不知道自己做错什么事情咯

我接受不到咯

都不懂你做么

nah,

我repeat repeat repeat, 尝试找我的错出来， maybe 我蠢 咯，我找不到咯。 

Last week,

me: wei, happy bday.

you:  haha. thank you. ei, when your exam finish?

me: er, 9/3 

you: oh same date with my mum bday.

When 9/3, 

me: eh, i finish my exam d. help me wish your mum happy bday .

you: how you know eh? you check my 底 ?

me:  zzz. -,-  you ownself tell me one. who so free go check you... zzzz  -,-

you: i say nia ma, you can no need rmb de.. 

me: my brain didnt forget how i force it to forget.... &^*&Y*(#$%$^&*

告诉我 告诉我，

我哪里做错了？

因为没有  特地  忘记

所以我错了？

搞到我  好像很卑微   专程  去记住你说的话酱

LAUGH MY ASS OFF!

我跟自己讲， 

aiya.... 

搞不好你心情不好叻。。。

我也不好酱小气咯。

但是，骂人要有point okay? 

烂到。。。

okay 咯，斯文人  不要跟你吵咯。。。 CHEH. 

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end of 1st exam week! =))

Ha. Me again here! It's Friday OMG!
I viewed my little Bloggie, and It was looked so emo lately.
LOL. That's not emo dont misunderstand ya dear readers..
Its so-called STRESS. wtf.
Can you imagine you have to swallow 300+ presentation slide,
and split all of them out when you sitting in the hall?
Its not kidding kayy... x.x
that's all TERMS, you have to memorize words by words as all students did the same things -.-


Well, no more exam post today! Welcome my awesome weekends!! =D
At least let me finish this blog then go sleep and then study okay? =)


First of all, there are two persons I have to apologize here.
First, dear Kli. (lolx. you won't mind your name appeared in my bloggie right? =)) )
I disappointed her for rejected her invitation to Jogoya buffet last night.
Woots! Jogoya right?! lolx. think about the food. sllurrppp. xD


Second, Mr Cow.
Lolx. okay fine. my fault okay. I should not fatt-lan-za again and again and again... ><
Lolx. but do you ever think that so easy to get irritated is kidda childish  immature? lolx. there was just few words. lolx. okay i apologize for blaming you for cheat. you not cheating, but only lying forgetting? LOL. okay . stop your anger right now! and open your msn, pop my conservation out and drop a HELO LENG LUI. LMAO! xD xD


hahaha! I can''t wait for few days more to back home! er, the actual date is not fixed yet but soon!! oh mama~ oh mama~ *excited*


Oh ya, once I back to my room from exam hall. Using my rocket speed, keep away all my past-exam notes into dustbin  cabin. I feel damn frustrated when looking at them. ><
And start to be maid, ignoring my hands become more 'rough?'  All I want is get my room clean!


*cleaning in progress*

 

did you see the floor? woops! it's shinning! because it's not dry yet. haha.


And guess what? I don't have sweet dream I mean sleep well, nearly a month. yes, a month!  And recently starts cough, not much, just a little.  I wrote these not want my readers to worry about me. I will take care myself, yes i promise.


wait for my next blog. tomorrow. maybe? x)








I love weekends! <3










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. . . .

I hate myself for so helpless. It's like I fall into the river that fulled of crocodile..
I hate myself for addicted so much to facebook.
I hate myself for sitting here and still blogging.
I hate myself for being so lonely at here. Room is quiet makes me feel so empty.
I hate myself for acting normal even I'm going to crazy.
I hate myself for loving you. It makes me so invaluable.



Mummy sorry that I not even dare to make a phone call to you. I am pretty sure that I will cried up at the end. I feel so helpless and restlessness. I wish I can go home now. T.T





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